Desperately Seeking Focus (and Balance)

I have not recently posted an update on my progress toward my goals for this year.  Mostly because I have been lacking focus and sort of ignoring some of them.  When I am experiencing stress, I tend to ignore things – even those things that I know will make me feel better over the longer term.  The last month or so has seemed a bit more stressful than usual.

I am going to attempt to re-set my focus and see how it goes.  I find that sometimes it is best for me to choose one thing at a time to get back in line so that I don’t become overwhelmed or discouraged.

Last week I was out-of-town and I let my healthy eating totally fall away.  I indulged in gelato, beer, cookies, pizza – it was a bit of an eating free for all.  Tasty and maybe even good for my mental health, but not helpful in achieving my fitness and physical health type goals.  Since I did not get home until Sunday night, I did not have time to do my prepping and cooking for the week.  I am certainly eating more healthfully than I did last week, but still  not on track like I was a few weeks ago.

Since I wasn’t able to have as much control over my food this week (lack of prep), I decided I would focus on another area that I felt I could have a bit more control over – my activity level.  I feel better when I am more active.  I love to walk, do yoga and work out (yes, even that), but I am pretty good at talking myself out of being active after a long day at work and no way am I getting up at o’dark thirty to work out.

This week I have been trying to get back into a fitness routine.  So far things are going pretty well.  I made it to yoga last night and tonight I worked out with Yvonne (AKA the Trainer Troll).  I know myself well enough to know that I need to structure for success.  I also know that I do better when I build habits or routines.  For this week it is important for me to be consistent in getting a routine going.  I know that if I am super sore tomorrow I will talk myself out of yoga tomorrow night.    Thankfully Yvonne seems to “get me” and worked me out hard, but not in a manner that will give me an excuse to skip yoga tomorrow.  Friday, Saturday, Sunday – probably will take Ann Marie for long walks in the harbor.

My goal for next week will be to add on to this week and to prep my meals on the weekend so that my eating is more healthful.  I am not sure what I will add on the next week, but I  intend to keep going with this until I get everything back in line.

I continue to seek balance in life, but truth be told, I can tend toward extremes if left to my own devices.  I know this about myself, but still I let it happen sometimes – maybe that is part of the balance too?